Gerak.

Whatever it is, kalau orangnya:-

buat hal berkali kali
tak lagi ambil masa untuk kita
buat kita rasa turn off banyak kali
berkali kali tegur masih sama
asyik rasa dia je betul
rasa macam things don't work out
rasa macam there's no future in this
makin lama makin makan hati
makin lama makin tawar hati
taknak berubah
dah tak lagi serasi
terlalu negatif

Pergi. 

Last short semester.

When I was having an exam the other day, I started to see things more clearly.

The name of the subject would be Effective Communication.
Haa time exam baru belajar nyah.
Tak tahu lah aku buat apa dalam class selama ni.

I learned about how relationship works.
I also learned about how relationship wrecks.

Why in life we need communication?

• To meet each others need.
• To gain more information.
• To lessen loneliness.
• To maximize pleasure and minimize pain.

From here, I started to think;

If the communication only brings pain, then we should do something lah kan? Now that's when conflict comes. 

The way you handle conflict would change things.

How relationship works?

1. Examine qualifiers. From here you see the qualities that you want at that particular person. Attractions.
2. Determine clearance. At this point we observe. Does the person okay for us to reach?
3. Make contact. Aha from here verbally or non verbally. Eye contact, senyum senyum, tegur.
4. Experimenting; the process to get to know a person. 
5. Intensifying; A desire to meet each other more often. Mutual thing. 
6. Integrating; The person is becoming a part of life. Where people start to notice both of you.
7. Bonding. Where you start to commit seriously. Like..a marriage.

How relationship wrecks?

1. Differentiating. We start to see more differences instead of similarities.
2. Circumscribing. We start to blame each other as communication interaction is decreasing and becoming negative.
3. Stagnating. We start to engage life as individuals -- separately. 
4. Avoiding. We start to avoid each other and the level of disagreements & frustration getting serious from here.
5. Terminating. We no longer want to see each other and no longer want to be seen together.

As much as I can relate to these two, I freaking feel the 2nd part better.

In life we would have 5 different style to overcome conflicts..

I'm not sure myself which one is the best one for me.

The Art of Letting Go.

At first, I can't. I'm not used to it..
It's because I genuinely care a lot.
It's because I sincerely just want to stay, keep them and cherish them with all I have.

And..I hurt myself.

But as the time goes by, I could see why. I could see more.
My perspective is broaden. My experience is widen. My view is expended.

I could see why letting go is the best thing that I've ever done.
I could see that accepting the reality is the most peaceful thing that I've ever done.

Tak pernah salah untuk melepaskan sesuatu kalau benda tu sedikit sebanyak membebankan.
Tak pernah salah untuk undur diri kalau benda tu lebih banyak menyakiti.
Tak pernah salah sedikit pun nak berpatah balik kepada diri sendiri, kalau diri selalu dipersoalkan.

There are people out there that can treat us right.
And what's important is when we treat ourselves right.

Love isn't supposed to hurt.
It wasn't healthy.
It wasn’t the way love is supposed to feel.
And leaving this isn't the end of the world.
And gives chances to re-learn about life.
It was a part of my life, it's not like it's my entire life.

I love myself enough that letting go is the best choice for myself.
I love you enough that letting go is the best choice for your freedom.

We set ourselves free so that we could go further, as individuals.
We set ourselves free so that we could be better, separately.
We set ourselves free from each other so that we could be happier.

Maybe, it's better that you're not around me.
Maybe, it's better for my mental health too.

I will always have myself.