Draft post: A stranger that I never talk to anymore.

13th Dec, 2017.

"As for dealing with humans. That’s the risk you have to take i guess? That’s the thing about trusting people. You’ll never know bila that person is going to turn their back on your or hurt you. But you can’t just generalise that with everyone sebab some people who you thought is going to hurt you or lie to you or take you for granted  could turn out to be a blessing in disguise. So I always don’t see why we can’t go ahead and let people in our life anyway. Because some people might actually worth the risk. Tapi tu lah. Unfortunately, other people can be such a snake and ruin everything. That’s why it is important to know your self worth. Sebab when you know that you deserve nothing but great things, it is easier to cut out those toxic people. At the end of the day, it is how much you do for yourself."

It's 2019 now, yknow.
I hope in life I would find real people.
I hope in life I would find better people.
I hope in life I would be real and better from time to time, too.

Wherever you are, the strangers I know -- I hope you guys are doing fine too.
Aaamin.

Ex awkward-shit scenario?

I think being friends with your ex is fine.
BUT if you feel like your ex is replacing you so fast and having fun like nothing ever happened -- you stop.

Stop trying to know shit.
Stop being curious.
Stop the stalking thing.
Stop being a caring person even-though you're damn sincere about it.

You back-off, like a real ex.
You're deep down still in a healing process.
You don't really let go fully, that's why.

So..
Have some gaps.
Give some time.
Don't put any expectation.
And focus yourself instead.

Sampai lah kau rasa macam kau betul betul terima, kau akan ada mindset ni:

I'm glad that I actually lost you.
By losing you, I found something else. I found inner-peace.
However, it's never a regret to have you back then.
No grudges, no sad vibes. We're cool.

Haa gitchew.

Okay tu je. Babai.

Bajet Kewangan Secara Am.

Ya, a very different post this time since I can't sleep.
Plus, I'm not actually an emo-sappy person in real life.
It's just I love to write about life and feelings in general.
But this time it's different.
This is a part of my thoughts, yang bikin aku ada goal untuk masa hadapan. Ceh.

To me, bajet kewangan secara amnya..
Ah yelah secara am, sebab takdanya bajet kewangan secara Am-pang kan..
Tak ramai sedar it's actually important.

Sejak usia dah makin meningkat ni aku selalu fikir pasal benda ni.

Man, why I don't think about this at all during my younger age? 

Aku rasa aku baru start fikir secara serious pasal benda ni, last year kot.
Dulu? Takda. At all.
Yang aku tahu kerja untuk aku sara part-time degree aku. Tu paling penting.
Aku tak peduli aku kopak. Yang aku tahu aku dapat bayar part-time degree aku.
Part time degree aku satu sem untuk 3 subject, RM2010 gitu eh. 3 subject tau.
Overall aku dah bayar lebih 17k sekarang.
IMAGINE IF I DON'T SAMBUNG DEGREEE.. Would I save that 17K?
I don't think so ha-ha-ha sedar sedar tak tahu duit hilang mana.

So, I actually see my studies fee as a part of investment in my life.
Present life, not ok. But in terms of future life, it's gonna be worthy.
Mungkin sebab itu aku tak berapa kisah pasal duit kurang, limited free time & no social life.

BUT

As we're growing up to become an adult..actually life is more than that.
Life is more than just commitment.

In life you have to think about 3 things basically.
Present life, future life and also happy life.
In term of financial; commitment, savings and expense.

Aku suka baca pasal saving tips orang.
Aku suka baca pasal financial management.
Aku suka baca pasal investment tips.

But in the end, aku conclude yang aku langsung tak pakai tips orang.
Aku modified, ikut kemampuan aku.
Sebab bagi aku, benda paling penting for financial management ni bila kau tahu apa kau nak.

Haa gitchew.

Kalau tak sedar-sedar lagi, cuba la fahamkan sikit-sikit.
It's better late than never, guys.
Sikit sikit lama-lama jadi bukit, kecuali kalau kau campak semua kat laut.

Save early so that you can retire early!!!!!! I'm planning to retire at the age of 55 ha that's why.
Ok babai,

Well Regards,
Alia (yang tak emo seperti yang disangka)

Hati.

Kadang kadang apa yang kita nak, itu yang kita takkan dapat pegang lama.

Aku mohon agar kita bahagia.
Aku mohon agar kita tak disakiti sesiapa mahupun menyakiti sesiapa.
Aku mohon agar benda ni sedikit sebanyak buka jalan untuk kita.

Sebab untuk aku, aku pasti ini yang terbaik untuk diri aku.

Perasaan tu makin lama makin takda.
Aku tak boleh nak tipu diri sendiri.
Walaupun seringkali mencuba lagi dan lagi..
Kita takkan pernah boleh paksa, sebab apa?
Sebab seksa.